Dreaming...

I don’t know if it was the right thing to do or not. But I did do it. I deleted his contact info from my phone. Is this the first step to recovery? Probably not. My heart still hurts.

Facebook ruined my life.

Two faced bitches. Take em or leave em. I choose to leave them.

What a surprise. But I really shouldn’t even be. I had a feeling she would stick her fangs back into someone els.

I so tired of trying. What’s with guys these days? They want you. Things go awesome then at a flip of a dime they run the other way. Wtf. You really think I’m going to sit around the phone waiting for you to call me. Think again.

Me ” hey it’s almost hump day. “
Him ” I’m not waiting till then to jump you again”

I want that guy back. Why’d you go away.

It must be a good day if the sun is shinning and it’s getting hot out today.
Beach is calling my name. Only four more hours of work.

Why is it that everyone else gets their way. I clearly don’t have a say in mine.

Roommates suck especially the ones that don’t live at your house. Motherfucker keeps eating food and I’m broker than broke. So how the FUCK am I supposed to eat?! Less than $60 in my checking account. And I still have an entire week before I get paid. Life’s grand I want to cry.

It’s a month and a half into the new year. I thought things were supposed to get better this year since its now 2012. I’m still trying to figure life out. So far I’ve finally seen the light and figured out who the real liars and backstabbers are. Sad to say its one person I have extremely deep feelings for that I now am starting to loath. I’m trying to move on, but somehow it’s going to be a long slow process. Revenge has been on my mind lately. But karma has too. And well karma does kick some ass sooner or later…

wow. i just looked back to my very first post. it was i think sept of 2010. a lot has changed in a year. for the good, and bad i suppose. i think i’ve grown a little through the choices i have made. some things i don’t know how to undo. others i just have to put out of sight out of mind. that ones going to be the toughest. its like that something you desperately want sooo bad that you’ll do almost anything for it, but yet it is completely non achievable. So until i can get out of my slump i’m down as dirt right now. not even chocolate ice cream can cheer me up.